Thursday, November 3, 2011

:(:(

什么都完了...心也粹了...没有人懂我的痛...工作+生日的愿望+喜欢的人+连最喜欢的水瓶的handle也被我踩断了...我真的很伤心难过...想要做的东西别人却觉得我不应该...我该怎么才好....???我不想要这样...谁可以来救救我...:(:(

Tuesday, August 16, 2011

:(:(:(

啊啊啊啊......好烦好烦!!!!....:(:(

Saturday, July 9, 2011

arrgghh !!! 1 more day left ----> result release !!! last sem .........

i wish !!! i hope !! i can graduate 2morrow !!! please all god (ma zhu, fa zhu gong, dua bei gong, guang ying) all of u please bless me k !!! i 1 miracle.... i'm really tired !!!!!!!!!!! please help me so that i can graduate this sem !!!

isshhhh damn !!! a bad day .... no more inviting u all to my house next time ... wtf.....

no more inviting u all come again......... all is big mouth !!!! big mouth !!! wtf....... please la u all... use ur brain !!! no more next time ......... stupid day !!! hate

Monday, May 23, 2011

:)

加油!!!加油!!!坚持到最后!!!

现在的这一刻,突然觉得孤独寂寞....:(

这一刻,感觉自己越来越觉得很孤独又寂寞...也许我真的很想念家了!!!这里的每一个人都跟她们感情已经不好了...而那些好的室又却又搬走了...爸妈,我真的很想念你们!!!可是也只能在宿舍...没别的办法...可是我真的很坚强,我不哭,不能难过,考试的时间是真的剩不多了...还有很多东西需要读,时间真的很少,也不知可以冲到那里...所以,我只能竟我的能力再一次的拼到最后!!!度过这个难关!!!爸爸所说,最后学期了,就放多一点苦,吃多一点库....所以拜托我也不要一直胡思乱想...能读多少就读多少...祈祷保佑伸一直陪伴在我的身边,陪伴我靠完这次的考试!!!感恩...

Tuesday, May 10, 2011

:(:( day again ....

arghh how can i just cope it for everything right now... i really try my best to study whatever is important ... but what the question comes out is so so so that different ... what i did't focus on yet the question comes out ?? is it a trick for me .... what i have studied all =0 .... right now i feel very sad ... why my heart always so soft ??? a little bit den feel so sad i really donnoe how to correct it ... i know if i cry also can't do anything .... for the test, i think just forget about it !!! i just hope that my internal marks still can achieve 20/30 what i wish i have dump a lots of marks for my mid term !!! i just wish i can get 20 marks and i will feel very contented !!! whatever to do now is continue my performance assignment !!! will due in 3 more days !!! n also this weekend to srt my theory assignment and srt doing my revision !!! the most important things is i wish that i can graduate graduate graduate this sem !!! hope everything is fine for me !!!!

Sunday, May 8, 2011

Happy mother's day & i'm very sad recently !!! seriously

Firstly, today is Mother's day... But i'm not around at my hometown to help my mum celebrating mum's day with her ...last week just celebrate together with my popo ...Hope mum don't mind !!! but next time we can celebrate everyday k ...must wait me till i work k ... den we can celebrate here everday!!! But anyway, happy mother's day yea... mummy, i lover u forever ")


arghhh... i really afraid... i feel very inferior...i owed dad n mum a lot of paying my fees, and used my sis's car .... n i donnoe when only i can return all those to them, sometimes i just feel that i'm not affordable how to repay bk all in once ... and this is my final sem, i'm very sad in staying this hostel anymore, luckily dad n mum allowed me to move out on june !!! but i really hope that i can graduate this sem !!! i really don't wish to come bk here anymore of seeing ppl stupid black face and make me can't sleep well everynight of the stupid room's light... Anyway i will fight to the end !!! may all god bless me k... n grandma !!! please bless me ya. i'm very miss u here !!! hope u're fine in another new world with new friends, with ur parents and relative !!! bless all our family are being healthy and bless me i can graduate fast fast in this sem !!!
And happy mother's day to u, grandma... :)

Saturday, March 26, 2011

难过 ....

'心' 自从这个学期就越来越暖弱...一下子我的泪是天天不停不停的落....我不知如何才好...因为拥有很多压力,而且最后学期了...情绪是越来越糟....拜托拜托神啊,你们要保佑我...我不要爸爸妈妈为我操心...真的,在帮帮我多3个多月,我就可以自由了.... 拜托要好好的照顾我....感恩爱....

Sunday, March 13, 2011

tired & boring, I miss my home much

Just reached hostel today after busying for my grandma's funeral this few days ... i very miss my home, miss dad, miss mum all the moment we spent this few days... when i come bk hostel, no one are here... feel so lonely ...:'( :'( and have to rush on with my group presentation things !!! :( i hope i can finish it by today ... And have to get ready to catch up all the book that i miss last week what the lecture taught .... i want to be a good gal this sem and hope can graduate in this sem ... i really don't want to let my parents dissapointing on my studies... i wish i can work soon and earn some money to filial back to my parents !!! God bless me !! and grandma bless me to achieve my wishes k !! Grandma, i know u'll be afraid because u're alone in another world... I hope u don't be afraid there k... Anyway, we're always stay beside you and Wish u can know more friends and enjoy the new world... Remember must take care all of us in the family k ...

Monday, March 7, 2011

失望...

突然那一刹纳,觉得好失望...:(

发奋图强!!!

现在要开始做tutorial功课了...加油!!!这个学期我要发奋图强!!!要快快毕业... 做完明天就可以出去玩了。。。然后拜3回去看外婆...外婆,你好吗???你等我哦,外婆...好想昨天就回去看你了,但我又上课到拜3,对不起,外婆因为我们迟回去...

4年前的我们,你说我们还会有机会回到原点吗???

我真的很想念我们的过去,我们所常常在一起的日子...昨天收到你的安慰,感动了我的心,因为你很久没有找我聊天,信息什么也没有,然而一封的安慰,让我的泪是不停的落下来了,但你也让我站了起来因为外婆去了另一天堂了...你让我觉得4年前的我们...如果时间可以倒回去,那该有多好,你说我们还会有机会回到原点吗???我真的依依不舍,因为你的离开,我的心痛的每一晚的泪不停的落,现在想想还是很舍不得你...已经习惯依赖你了,好希望可以永远永远一直依赖你...过去的你也没告诉我你是否有喜欢的对象,可是从你的布落格看到你好像在等着一个人,我猜想你已经找到你的对象了...所以也不敢的跟你坦白说我已经喜欢上你了,直到现在也不敢,因为我跟你说过后肯定会打乱你的心的...而到现在,也不知道你是否还在等你心上人吗? 我好想知道你告诉我,可以吗?我真的很舍不得你,你还愿意等我吗??? 是否还有机会我们可以在从新来过吗?我等你给我答案...希望你能有空回来看看我的布落格......

Sunday, March 6, 2011

~ sad & moody day ~

突然的那一杀纳,我的泪就掉了下来...爸爸通知外婆今早去世了...刚刚心情有点气,伤心,...爸,对不起,讲电话里好像有点太大声...希望你不在意... 因为姐姐在中国,我也知道她很想回来拜外婆,而我只是想呆多天,再陪姐姐一起驾车回来...最后也做了一个决定,所以就这样决定了...刚刚一小时前,我的泪是一直一直的掉,因为我收到一位对我非常重要,特别安慰我的人,我看了更难过,但因为有你的安慰让我站了起来...我知道外婆到另一个世界了,我应该要让外婆过的更开心...外婆,你到了另外一个世界,一定要照顾自己,希望你可以永远过的开开心心,好吗?外婆,我真的想你了....我爱你,外婆 ♥ ♥ ♥ ...

Tuesday, February 22, 2011

:(:(

i'm very useless :( :( :(

feel sad !!!

feel so sad.... Sunday,20feb2011 i let my mum feel angry .... sad ... and hate me.... haiz..... i really sad ...till now she don't want to talk to me....i'm sorry !!!!

Tuesday, February 15, 2011

我爱他 ......

他的轻狂留在 某一节车厢
地下铁里的风 比回忆还重
整座城市一直等着我
有一段感情还在漂泊
对他唯一遗憾是分手那天
我奔腾的眼泪都停不下来
若那一刻重来 我不哭
让他知道我可以很好
我爱他 轰轰烈烈最疯狂
我的梦狠狠碎过却不会忘
曾为他相信明天就是未来
情节有多坏 都不肯醒来
我爱他 跌跌撞撞到绝望
我的心深深伤过却不会忘
我和他不再属于这个地方
最初的天堂 最终的荒唐
如果还有遗憾 又怎么样呢
伤了痛了懂了 就能好了吗
曾经依靠彼此的肩膀
如今各自在人海流浪
我爱他 轰轰烈烈最疯狂
我的梦狠狠碎过却不会忘
逃不开 爱越深越互相伤害
越深的依赖 越多的空白
该怎么去爱
我爱他 轰轰烈烈最疯狂
我的梦狠狠碎过却不会忘
曾为他相信明天就是未来
情节有多坏 都不肯醒来
我爱他 跌跌撞撞到绝望
我的心深深伤过却不会忘
我和他不再属于这个地方
最初的天堂 最终的荒唐
如果还有遗憾是分手那天
我奔腾的眼泪都停不下来
若那一刻重来 我不哭
让他知道我可以 很好

Monday, February 14, 2011

惊吓日...

昨晚差一点就出车祸...吓倒我...好才没有事情...因为一辆摩托车没看到我要转弯,他也跑出来...好才他有散开...不然就撞到我的车而他应该会飞在地上...好险没事...外婆还在住院,但又突然越变越严重...我好希望她平安无事...妈主娘娘,发主公,观音妈,大伯公,全部神保佑她...希望她不要再发脾气,不然又喘,希望她可以天天开开心心的....

Friday, February 11, 2011

天公日

昨天晚上很多人拜天公,而我家附近好多人放五彩缤纷的烟花...躺在床上的那一刻,眼睛一望出去就看到烟花了...好希望每天都可以这样看烟花...今年应该是特别多人放...还有孔明灯...明年我也好想放孔明灯哦...

Thursday, February 10, 2011

雨过天晴

雨过天晴,我们又合好了...刚才陪她一起吃午餐... -_- 她还因为帮同事打包而跌倒屁股开花了...希望她没事...

爱情比友情更重要!!! 我可以了解了 .....

我的最最最好的朋友,对她侧底很失望!!!她变了...她已经把她的爱情比我们的友情看的更重要了...而她的男朋友只了解她的一个人眼泪...那我呢???你了解到吗???那我告诉你,我的痛,我的泪比你们更痛更多!!!不是因为她跟我少出,而是太多次的伤害造成现在的情况...我已经无法忍耐了...我每次跟她讲电话时,她必须忙着回你信息...而慢回复你你又肯定大发脾气!!!我呢?如果你打给她,而我讯息她时,我需要等多久才能收到她的信息???跟她讲电话讲一半,尽然你电话打进来,叫我等一下,我可以等...但你要我等几久???不接你的电话,等下你又生气!!!每次我跟她出去,她不是每一分,就是每一秒回你信息不然就是听你电话...不回,不接,等下有人又生气!!!我不是当一颗树在那边傻傻???我因为太了解你,所以会体谅...相反的,你跟她出去,我讯息她,她有将急急忙忙的回复我吗???还有昨天明明你还没有到家,你为什么要信息我说你到了呢???(4.05分信息讲你在家,4.11分我打给你,你讲你还在外面)不是很荒谬吗???如果你还没有到就没到,没有你,我也不是还是可以自己一个人出去的...就是因为我怕你们吵架,所以我牺牲,我可以自己一个人出的... 而你不需要骗我... 如果你不骗我,我也不可能将生气的!!!你每次说很需要我,也只剩那么一个好朋友,那么你有想过这些吗???我已经看见你所得到的爱情比我们的友情看的更重要了...而你不需要为我调什么眼泪... 因为我对你而言只是一根杂草了....